Letters Addressed To The Fire- Series/4/
24/04/18
Tuesday
1 am PST
We all feel this way in our lives, one moment or the other. I know for sure that most of us have felt this. This feeling that is strange yet somehow you own it.
I still remember that day, the day sun was shining just fine, no winds blowing as if showing me the signs. The day, when you walked through that door, you were just one normal random guy in my class. Until, we started talking.
I saw how much we shared things in common, and even when we didn't, I saw how you made me comfortable every time I shared my troubles and doubts. The day I started seeing the good in me, the day I started seeing my worth because you showed me that. And in a few days, I didn't know how much attached I was to you. You were there for me when I was alone, helped me heal with all your might. You made me see how strong of a woman I was. And, just when I started imagining my life with you in it. Just when I started seeing my future with you in it. Just when I thought I would suffocate without you every time. YOU LEFT ME.
You left me all alone. You were a termite for my soul, a parasite attached to my soul. Now I sit back and think, was all of that a show? Do you do this to every girl? Do you really play with the hearts of people just because you have an innocent face? If there was no us in your future, why you gave me the signs, why you told me about the bright places when you were going to go there alone? Was all those years a time pass? Should I believe you never felt anything at all?
Nothing, when we had those rides together? Nothing when we had lunch together? Nothing when you gifted me all those precious gifts that I kept safe more than my life? Was all of that a joke? I am still trying to get over all of this. No matter how hard I try I can never hate you because I loved you, with all that I had, with all that I could give. But, I will forever hate you for I will never trust in love again, I will never ever be able to look at the man while thinking he is the one.
Because when I thought that you are the one you were not. You shook my beliefs, you destroyed them and stood on them. You tore away all the petals of the rose and gave me the thorns. You were the one who helped me built the kingdom and you were the one who tore it apart, ripped it to shreds, leaving me in a rubble and nothing else!!
I hope you Don't break more hearts. Like the way you broke mine. I hope you don't go around fooling with innocent lives. I hope you don't ever mess with anyone's heart anymore.
But, all I want is for you to fall deeply in love with someone, to think of them in your future, to go out on dates with them, to buy them gifts, just so they can reject you and move on. Because I want to see how will you deal with the grief or will you feel it at all? I want to see can you really love or can the abandoned love haunt you till death. You were and will always be a beautiful façade for me.
Regards,
Someone who is trying to unlove you~
