That Thin Line Between Beautiful And Loneliness!
How long does something have to be a beauty before it turns lonely?
Where exactly is this thin line that we know for sure to exist between the two? So, we know when exactly we must stop looking? So we know exactly when to step to the other side. Or we might just never do that, ever. Because why would we want to step to another side? Standing on the side you’ve always been standing on always feels the right thing to do. Because it’s home, it’s comfort, it’s good.
Might be too good or sometimes, might not be that good yet it’s something you don’t want to lose. For most people that might be beautiful, for some rare people it’s lonely. There’s something calm about that side. Because you can never find someone there, inside that little bubble of yours. Yes, there are people on that side, but not inside your bubble.
Because when it’s more than a single person inside the bubble it, more often than you might think, loses its balance and knocks itself over. Because that bubble is a place where suddenly everything has to be two. Or sometimes half.
Even though half is good because how often do you have a whole of something to yourself?
But this side, the side where I am standing, it never loses balance because of two people. This side never has tensions building because the bubble can’t decide which way to move towards. Because this side is everything that you have always been familiar with.
When you invite someone in your bubble, the wired positions of things inside your brain alters. Suddenly there’s someone else taking up a space that once was empty and nothing seems to be in it’s place anymore. They alter everything.
But most people say it’s for good. And yes, I think it is good to have two rather than one. You can share your loneliness with someone. But the fear of losing balance always takes over. The fear of going in different directions.
But, Ah, how to convince it to someone, about the beauty in two, who resides on the side where all they’ve seen are burst bubbles and a single person inside. Or someone who’s half broken.
PS- Have you ever wondered why sometimes something beautiful can also reflect loneliness? Most people might not look at it that way but if you look at the most beautiful things very carefully, surely there comes a time when it starts to feel lonely. And this feeling is so strong that it’s not only you who feels it, but that thing also starts to feel that loneliness. I know it’s so stupid saying that but I can’t express that feeling in correct words.
